What would you say if I sang out of tune?

It’s been a while since I sat down intent on writing. In actual fact It’s not; In the past months I’ve sat countless times in front of a computer trying to get some words down to fill in the gap which was slowly growing bigger in this blog. But for some reason I wasn’t able to. Having said that, blogging is much more fun when you’re lying down in your bunk bed on a sleeper-bus with a lunatic driver attempting to get you safely from Mumbai to Goa. Yep you heard well, Mumbai to Goa, in India that is. I apologise for the time away, so before I start writing about India let me give you a short summary of the past months. The past months have incarnated that which before had seemed to be merely a mirage in the distance. I have a plan for the future, or perhaps better to say, a vague idea; and for a person who by choice opted to live his youth as an extraneous and decorative cog in society, a blatant statement such as the penultimate took quite a bit of stomach turning to bring up.

Like in all good stories, there is a girl involved. As soon as I returned home from Thailand, beat and disappointed, I soon started looking for a job keeping in mind that I soon had to start planning a new trip. Soon enough I started teaching English to foreign students. On my first day I found my class and waited for the one-to-one student to show up. She arrived and I started delivering the lesson I had prepared for her. By the end of it all I had no idea how I had done on my first day as a teacher, but what I was sure of was that she would be the one to teach my heart how to crawl, walk and then run.  Who knows whether coincidences exist, but by Jove I can never thank enough the guy who stole my passport in Thailand and had me returned home. Taking life with a pinch of salt or karma you might call it, but really it’s just evidence that no matter how hard you try to tailor your fate, at times it’s just a matter of waiting for the next good thing which is making its way into your life. In good travellers’ fashion, my new relationship couldn’t be one close to home, and that is why this summer I travelled to Sicily half a dozen times to visit her. – Spending time soaking in the Italian sun and being stuffed delicious Sicilian food. That and work, are the reasons why this blog has suffered. On top of the frequent trips to Sicily, I also spent a week in Romania and a weekend with my little sister in Paris for my birthday – Pretty hectic weekend but totally worth it. Here’s a short video that shows how we spent a day at Disney land and saw most of Paris in under 48hours.

Another big building | Paris 2013 from KarlAndrew on Vimeo.

And now I’m in India. I don’t really know what to say about India without sounding too negative. India so far has been to me a bit like modern art, beautiful but a bit too in your face. I understand all the components that make up the country: I understand honking your horn, I understand the smell of shit, I understand beggars, I understand litter, traffic, that one must rush to get a place on a train and that taxi drivers try to screw you over! Now for a second however, Imagine your idea of all these things, multiply it by a hundred; throw in some nice people, summer sun, kites, a lot of bright colours and amazingly delicious and cheap street food – and that’s incredible India right there!

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The guy I buy my samosa in a bun from

 

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Road works in Mumbai

 

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Is what it is, a cow in the middle of the street!

 

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Indians playing cricket!

 

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Some boy who just wouldn’t leave us alone.

 

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The gateway of India

 

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Cow chillin’

 

On my arrival to Mumbai I was immediately given a taste of India’s bureaucracy. At customs I was asked for my Visa and my return ticket. Now since I held the former without the latter this caused some problems – luckily Indians falter just as easily at the sight of puppy eyes, and they let us through.

India is an acquired taste; you can’t just take a bite and expect to like it. At first it’ll shock you by its sheer number or people and you will ask yourself why this race choses to flock so much , and the poverty and affluence will bewilder you, and the excessive use of horns will accompany  you throughout the night, the smell or shit will seem to get stronger and the drivers crazier. But then you start coming to terms with it all. You start accepting that in India one can find a roller coaster built right beside a holy pagoda, that haggling is expected, that people will ask you for your number and will text you and call you all day, that you have to fill in a bunch of papers for anything you want to do, that if you walk into a temple you can’t avoid getting invited into some strange ritual and that anything which for you might be considered odd, somewhere in India is as a matter of fact a very ordinary thing. This is what I think of India after just four days. It feels like I’m in a modern painting, I can’t quite make sense of it but I sure am looking forward to see what India has to throw at me. Goa!

 

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Out!

I have come up with every excuse in the world not to write this blog. It pains me in fact to force myself to recollect the events which had me repatriated from Thailand – just when things were getting good. Let me start from the beginning.

I volunteered on the farm in Chiang Mai for a month and a half, and as my previous blog ought to have suggested, I was having the time of my life. As the time, however, for me to leave the farm approached, I started looking into the possibility of delving into something new within the vicinity of the farm, and so I did. My good friend John, who lived only a few minutes away, offered to rent me a few rooms in his house. One to use as a bedroom and the other to transform into a small classroom where I would give private English lessons. All seemed well; I was going to make a decent amount of money and at the same time be close to my dear farm. “We went to the store to buy a few beers”. These famed words are often followed by a great story; but at times it is a bad story which follows.

We went to the store to buy a few beers to celebrate my plans for the future. One thing led to another and before we knew it we found ourselves on the motorbike heading to the city. We drank, we passed out and some of us made it home. I was one who managed to get home safely only to get a call in the morning from my Maltese friend urging me to go back to the city. I quickly returned back to the city, bearing in my bag our passports and visas as instructed. It turned out that we had been tricked by the Thai Consulate in Malta on our visas. He had explicitly stated that we had a six month visa which should have resulted in a problem free six month stay. However, the truth was, that despite our visas and what the Consul had said, we had to check in at immigration every two months to let them know we were still in the country. We clearly failed to do this and so, thrift being our major strength, rushed to the city to dodge the daily fine which ensues.

That night, sleeping soundly in the corridor of a hostel where we were squatting, we had our passports stolen. Kids, if you can afford it, there’s nothing better than the comfort and safety of your own room whilst traveling.

We woke up the following morning ready to take on immigration office. We looked under the foam mattress we had slept on, and the bag with the passports in it had disappeared. To this day I wonder whether I should be furious at the thieves or fascinated by them; it is truly amazing how they managed to roll over a fully grown man to get to a bag well concealed under his mattress – kudos – may my passport serve you well, whatever you intend to do with it.

Being both particularly calm people, Jean and I only started panicking after we had our coffee. We asked at the reception if there were any security cameras we could have a look at, checked the cleaners’ bags and asked around – but all was in vain; and so our only option was to make a police report . The day way Sunday, a very hot Sunday. We spent the day crossing from one end of Chiang Mai to the other to get police reports and perhaps some assistance from the British council but as per usual rules supersede real necessity and we were refused help.  Friends tried their best to cheer us up, yet little they could do could help us; however to be fair, I did feel much better after I slept in my pimp-friend’s water bed. That woman is amongst the kindest I have ever met or am likely to ever meet; Sokon :)

First chance I got, I gave the Maltese consulate in Bangkok a ring, and from what I gathered from their broken English I had to go to Bangkok to make a temporary travel document. I made the 15 hour trip to Bangkok alone, fantasizing about how well I would be treated at the Maltese consulate. My my was I wrong. I walked into the consulate first thing in the morning, or should I say I walked into a tourist agency which disgracefully doubles as a Maltese consulate. I dispensed the facts of my situation to as many people in the office as possible yet few seemed to understand me or wished to help me. The Maltese consuls are two; one spoke little English and so she put me on the phone with the other who spoke a bit more English. Again, I recounted my story. I noticed at once that the person I was speaking on the phone with was poorly hiding in the next room. I asked him to speak to me in person but he earnestly refused to see me, claiming that he was a sick man. The absurd thing however, is that once the rest of the office noticed that I had called his bluff, they strutted into his office for new orders. A farcical sight which I am sure to never understand.  I left that office with no positive information whatsoever. Having been given an expired email address of the Maltese Foreign Affairs office, I came to the conclusion that I had to solve my own problems. I truly thank my lucky stars for a loving family. With their help and with the help of the Maltese Foreign Affairs I got in touch with the Belgian embassy and ultimately got myself a temporary travel document, only valid to return home. Having to return home destroyed me last year when I ran out of money in Spain and it destroyed me even more this time knowing that I had done nothing wrong.

Having said all this, the two weeks I spent running around Thailand trying to sort things out were some of the best weeks I had in Thailand. I met amazing new people and formed solid friendships. Now I’m back in Malta, well actually I’m on the catamaran on the way to Sicily for the weekend. My thirst for travel is certainly insatiable, and I shall keep trying to satisfy it in every way possible, even if by a meagre weekend trip to get away from the daily mundane life. Things do not always go as intended; still this is no reason to stop dreaming, to let the fear of past failures overcome hope in the future. In my thoughts baby dreams of big travels are slowly learning to walk, keep posted for more information.  It feels good to be back on the road .

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Zarathustra

A buzzing insect hovering over my mosquito net and a dog breathing heavily beside my bed  interrupt me from computing the effect that the past weeks have had on me, or perhaps what is mostly holding me back is my fear of ruining my thoughts as I break them into writing. It’s been a month since I left home on my second long journey after last year’s six months in Spain. Based on the skills I had learnt from my previous travels I was convinced that Thailand would be a walk in the park; I thought I was wont to whatever the road had to throw at me, but Thailand has been a big surprise I was not expecting to find at my door. It has pushed me to limits which I didn’t know how to handle and has taken me to places inside of me which I didn’t even know existed.

Leaving Bangkok as myself I made it to Kanchanaburi. There, I rented a motorbike and rode it far up the mountains straight to an idyllic spot where crystal waters rush heavily down the face of a waterfall, hammering down on the people who choose to bathe beneath them. Yet another item was crossed off my bucket list that day. After Kanchanaburi I ventured south, straight into the bowels of tourism, where travelers  lose their faces to a big “dollar sign” mask which is put on them to build upon it the modern Thai culture of sucking up to the west. Restaurant signs read “Traditional Thai food and Pizza”, Saddled elephants are made to smile and parade paying tourists into the forests, and lovely beaches are turned into wild fire shows by night and human toasters by day. If you’re kind enough to be reading what I have to say, please understand that although what I say is all truthful, I do not intend to drop the tone on Thailand in any way but merely give my personal take of it. Thailand is a beautiful country with stunning sceneries, almost celestial sea life and sunsets that would make a dead heart rise to beat again. I, however, felt alone.

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Eruwan Waterfalls

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Kho Phangan

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Phi Phi

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Sunset on PhiPhi

Maybe I was missing home, or perhaps let down by my expectations, but mostly I felt different and hence began my solitude. After spending two days locked in my bungalow I noticed how stupid I was being. Zarathustra kept me company, and so I decided that having different ambitions and expectations for this place was not my real problem, my problem was not looking for the right people. While traveling, as much as it is important to try new food and meet new people, it is also important to meet with yourself and endeavour to better who you envision yourself to be. Only by knowing this, can you attract the people that fit best against your rough edges. We are born into a vehicle with which we must make do to translate our ideas and manifest our actions to the world, and the less you know what it’s capable of the bumpier the ride will be.  Here, I learnt to trust myself

A few days later I found out that a friend of mine had passed away in his sleep. I felt shattered because for one thing he did not deserve to die, secondly because I may not have invested enough in that friendship and finally because I came to the realisation how uneven life is. As a result of this I attempted to climb up a waterfall one day and as I reached half way to the top I lost my hand on a slippery hold and plummeted straight down. I remained calm throughout the whole descent, even as my bones tumbled against the bulging rock tearing my skin open and bruising me all over.  And as I hit the pond at the foot of the waterfall, I stood up and laughed. I laughed because I felt strong, as though death had put its hand on my shoulder, walked with me to remind mehow attentively it follows me, and then went along its way. I figured then, that it’s not enough just to know what you’re made of; establish laws that govern your interior and throw yourself into a pin ball machine and hope you’ll hit the best corners. If we’re bothered to ask what we are made of, then we should also be disposed to condition where we are going and do something with ourselves.

It’s a small world, and luckily I met Jean – A guy from my own country who I coincidentally knew from years back. As we crossed from Koh Tao back to the mainland on a sleeper boat we spoke of many things, and the second he offered me to volunteer with him on an organic farm I immediately took him on his offer. We met a week later and got to the farm.

The 82 year old owner comes by every two to three days, carrying his pipe everywhere with him as he constantly tops it up with weed. The guy not only gives us a place to stay and free food but is also inundates us with wisdom he picked up throughout his lengthy life. Although some of his morals are debatable, he is an extraordinary man. When he and his Thai wife come along they always make it a point to bring us some roast chicken and immeasurable energy.

I feel as though I’m meant to be on this farm. It’s all that I have ever wanted. Through food and creating and fixing things I feel I can express myself. The other day Jean and I got an old stereo running again and I can’t start to put down in words the joy we felt in succeeding. Although we govern this place we are also its subject, the just respect of my surroundings has given me inexplicable internal peace which I have never felt before. I find joy in feeding the ten puppies and watching them grow stronger every day as their limbs take them farther every time they go out of their burrow. Sometimes I kneel down and touch the warm soil that engulfs the roots that will eventually turn into my food. The simplicity of this place hypnotizes me to love life. When I look at this place I realise that humans can also take on the semblance of a god in creation not only in destruction. Out here I don’t function but I play, my mind has come out to play.  I remember being fascinated by a quote on one of the walls of the University I used to attend which went along the lines of “Find here your real self”. I now understand how pretentious that is, to imply that an institution or a profession could define you. Knowledge as important as it is can be found all around us and we should seek it where it is purest but we must understand that life begins when we touch the world with our knowledge and interact with it. On this farm, when you stick your hand out to touch the farm, it sticks out its hand and touches you back. Here I lived.

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Feeding the Puppies

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How it should be done!

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Cooking time

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Perfecting my butchering skills

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Lotus flower – the girls’ farewell Graffiti

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Yeah BUDDY!

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Farang

It’s only been 6 days since I’ve embarked on my journey through Thailand, yet so much has happened that I can barely get my head round everything. Luckily I’m sitting on a bus headed to Kanchanaburi that smells only mildly of cat piss allowing me to think back on the past week.

Just 6 days ago I got on that plane to Cairo, lounged past my 7 hour lay over and then took on the painfully long journey to Bangkok. Thankfully my seat was next to trice divorced happy hippy Ziggy, who as opposed to the Maltese I met at the airport spoke not of scams, human trafficking or theft,  but promptly accepted one of my ear phones to listen to some of my music. The meals on the flight weren’t the best but all in all I managed to make it to Thailand safely while also catching some Zzzzs.

Thailand has an immediate sense of lawlessness  attributed to it. Straight out of the plane, I skipped what may have been hundreds of people waiting in line to get through customs simply because I disguised myself as a family member of a Thai woman I met on the plane. Once I picked up my bags I was fortunate enough to befriend a Maltese girl that seemed to have it all sorted out, so I followed her to her hostel of choice – and boy was I lucky.

At the hostel, Phiman, the world seems to come to a halt  Family run, Phiman is built right over stilts in the river. If I had to be asked what is so special about that place, I wouldn’t be able to give a decent answer – certainly not the mosquito bites at night and bed bugs as you sleep, cold showers,  and within the same square meter bathroom a toilet with no tissue paper. However, what makes you fall in love with the place is the extra food mama purposely cooks so she can share it with guests, ‘Uomo Bomba’ (as the Italians called him due to his terrorist look) fixing anything that breaks, papa handing you cold beer from the fridge in exchange of 60B, the little abandoned baby taken in by the family with a dusty bottom as he crawls around all day with not pants on, and finally Jane who greets you at the door, answers all your questions, and pesters you to settle your bills. Strangely enough it’s also that moment  when you notice your ass needs whiping but there’s no toilet paper to with – then you look to your right, and it hits you that the pipe you wondered about the use of fits perfectly between your legs and does a mighty fine job to get you clean.  But most of all, it’s just the colours of that place, and all the people just hanging around in the living area on hammocks and mats sharing experiences over a beer.

Away from that protected haven over the river, run the busy streets of Bangkok. Mouth watering street food for less than a euro is definitely the major highlight of the day. Other than the street food and men with weird accents trying to sell you all sorts of crap, a most prevalent difference in culture noted is the number of men converted to women one can encounter on the streets. Having  been fooled once by some who kept me in the dark of their past I decided to keep an open eye for any.

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Now although, Bangkok is in many respects different from Europe, it doesn’t afford much of a culture shock due to its urban structure. Having said that, it still gets you thinking about how much we have to thank for. Most of these people have close to little going for them. They’re stuck on the street selling ping pong shows, tuk tuk rides , roses and tank tops. And while they try to please passing tourists they’ll never get the chance to see what more is out there.

Bang, my tuk tuk driver, only 20 years old , tried to screw me over a few times. For a hundred Baht he offered to take me all round Bangkok to 5 or so sites. He did keep his promise, however in addition to that he made me visit a number of suit shops and travel agencies. When I let him know I was getting frustrated by this, he explained to me that he gets gasoline tokens for every shop I go to. So I played along, I went to every shop and sat through the whole exhibition of materials, zips and ties. Bang and I had a few good laughs that day. He thought me some meditation techniques and I showed him how to bump fists and then swish – Every time I cross across him in the street he always does it even if from a distance.

 Now that my 5 days in Bangkok are over, I’m heading to Kanchanaburi, a few hours away from Bangkok. If all goes well, I’ll meet new cool people and will tell you what it’s like to ride a scooter to a remote waterfall for a bath and riding the POW Death Railway.

Thailand Part 1 from KarlAndrew on Vimeo.

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Rock no more

When you go to the airport to pick up your one way ticket to Thailand, you know that shit just got real. The strange feeling that builds up in your stomach when you know you’re leaving home with no foreseeable plan to return, is not at all pleasant.  However, to the traveler it’s somewhat comforting – the feeling of that ravishing hurricane inside of you reminds you that while you gave up stability in life to meet new people, see the world and experience new aspects of life, at least you’re doing that correctly.

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As the day of my departure draws closer and closer, begins the last leg of my 4 months pit-stop. I’m glad to have spent Christmas with my family and enjoyed some time with my close friends, but now it’s time to leave once again. So now that I have quit working, got my ticket and crossing more and more things off my to do list every day that passes, all I have to do is say my last good byes. Into my backpack go my few belongings and off I am to Thailand.

As per usual there is no solid plan of what is to happen of me in the next few weeks, but I do know that for the first three weeks I will just be going round Thailand attempting to get as many sites under my belt; after that the usual hunt for a job and accommodation.  I’ll tell you all about it from the other end. Malta – Cairo – Thailand. -6 days :)

“I see my path, but I don’t know where it leads. Not knowing where I’m going is what inspires me to travel it.” – Rosalia de Castro


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Phra Khrut Phah

Visa’s here!!!! :D

– 25 days!

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Mr William Hugh Carbonaro, Consul General

Thai Consulate General in Valletta, Malta
4/4 Regent House, Bisazza Street
Sliema SLM 1641
Malta

(+356) 21 324 261
(+356) 21 319 325 / 6

thaicon@regentmalta.com

 

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Minus 29

I told myself I’d let the end of the world pass and start once again counting down to my departure and blog. Somewhere between work, Xmas and generally wasting time in films, internet, books and going out, I forgot to. New year’s eve is just as fit a day to start.  2012 was one hell of a year – the year I decided to drop out of law school and travel, the year I completed the camino, the year I faced  Spain and the very first time I stayed away from home for longer than two weeks. 2013 promises to be even better.

Since my return to Malta, I have been busy planning my next move. This involved selling my beloved motorbike to buy a one way ticket to Thailand and working my ass off to increase my capital. Above that, I did the TEFL course. The TEFL course is highly recommended to travelers and the like. The English teaching industry is strong and growing, and jobs are common. I just hope that’s really the case when I get there

Having had my arms shot with all kinds of vaccines and waiting for the Thai consulate to issue my visa, there remains nothing more but to start counting down to my departure. Malta – Cairo – Bangkok. 29 days to go.

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Surprise, Surprise.

Dear loyal reader, I have deceived you. In my last blog I said that I had no solid plans, however, I must inform you that I have decided to return to my country for a short (3 month) pit stop.

I have a long day tomorrow and I need to get some sleep so let me just run you quickly through the reasons why I came back home and leave you to a sweet video I prepared on my return home.

So spain proved to be a lovely country but the economic condition was just so horrible and I could not find a job. Money was running out and the possibility to move to another country was becoming slimmer by the minute.

Finally I reached the six month mark and beat all my friends’ bets, so this being an achievement in itself I had nothing to stop me coming back. To add on that, I met a really cool guy from israel that has been vagabonding the world for the past 6 years making bubbles as a street performance. He said that there’s no place like home and that anything you do should make you happy. So I did the thing that makes me happiest – hug my mother.

I informed very few people of my return so here’s a video of my family’s reaction when I knocked unexpectedly on their door.

Finally, next week I’ll start the TEFL course. This way I will be able to teach english anywhere round the world. Fingers crossed, in 3 to 4 months I’ll be hitting Asia!!!!

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The overdue blog. Tenerife post-mortem. Barcelona.

It´s been a month since I even had the thought to update my blog. A fairly erratic month, but overall I must say that the ups I went through were amazing.
 
Let´s go back one month. Since my last blog, I was working at a restaurant called St Sebastian; a tiny high class restaurant which I absolutely loved working at, for one thing because the staff was really nice, because they payed well and just because it put my mind at rest from the worry of running out of money and having to go back home. Unfortunately, the calm days were short lived, and when I returned from my first day off I found out that I was replaced by another waiter. I was never given a reason why I got fired, maybe it was because I broke a “few” plates now and again, or maybe because I corrected the manager´s English from time to time, or even perhaps because I wasn´t good enough. I was denied a reason, but what the hell, water under the bridge. I got my revenge when I shredded the uniform they gave me into a tank top for the beach.


I washed this sour episode with Birthday celebrations. I´m a big fan of my birthday, to me it´s a holy day, I look forward to it more than I look forward to Xmas. I had a few extra drinks the day before, and on the day I just woke up, caught a bus and got my first tattoo done. Before you know it the day was over. You can´t really make days good, you can´t predetermine their outcome, all you can do is live day by day expecting little and with open eyes patiently wait for the good things to come your way. If you want to see it, every day has something good to offer.


Again, I found myself with the constant thought of finding a job lingering at the back of my head – day and night. That is when I decided that Tenerife had exhausted all it had to offer me; so I started planning to leave, but since I had a few days left of rent, I decided to go back to the clubs with PRing. This time I faced the job with a bit more determination, I knew that there was nothing better for me so I did it and I enjoyed it – that doesn´t mean I was better at it, but at least I made new friends, got drunk more, danced more often, slept in more, ate better food and laughed more.


I lived those days worry free, with just the occasional change of plan for the end of the month. For a while it was China, followed by Russia, Germany, Switzerland, Iceland, Thailand….before you know it the month was up and rent was due.

That´s when you really start thinking, when your back´s to the wall. And so I made up my mind, Barcelona. My cousins took me in willingly. This would give me time to plan my next move and in the meantime try to increase my capital. My cousins were on holiday during the time of my arrival so for the first week I just chilled with them. We ate good food, strolled round Barcelona, rode tall roller coasters and napped on the beautiful beaches of Costa Brava (tossa del mar).

Traditional human towers in Catalonia called Castells. Your heart skips a few beats when you watch a 5 year old child climb up the trembling tower to conclude the act. It´s impressive, to see them dismantle when they succeed.


 
 

Tossa del Mar – Costa Brava

 
To see more photos of Barcelona click here.Although there was a short period during which I tried to look for a job, I found out a few days later that my friends were visiting Barcelona, so the Giddy (Spanish lingo, referring to stereotype tourists, sheep like, easily amused, sunblocked, hat, and camera tied to their belt) experience continued. I had a great time with them and they really made me miss home, but there´s more to see out there and I´m still on it.




It´s tough to constantly jump from the protective embrace of friends and family and onto the roads to look for job. A few days ago I spoke to my mum about this, and she said that that is a lesson I have to learn – the world is not as kind as I imagine it. I beg to differ – the world is a kind place, and human beings are made to be kind. However, it´s become so hard to live in this fast moving and hectic world that people can barely afford to be kind to themselves let alone to others. An 8 hour sleep is a thing of the past for the modern day man, so is a weekend with no phone calls, a pick nick uninterrupted by emails, a few hours a week alone with the wife, a holiday every now and then. Would you want to sacrifice some of your goods for a stranger, if your life as it is already misses such basic pleasures? I would suggest a solution but this blog is not Political nor Didactic.  

 
And to conclude. If you´re asking yourself where I will be going next, I cannot answer that question. I honestly don´t know where I´m going to be next week, and even if I do have a plan it will probably change by tomorrow or the next hour; so there´s no point in informing you about that either, it will only confuse you. I do plan however to blog more often, don´t bank on it though, ok?
 

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Virgen del Carmen

Yesterday, with great difficulty I woke up making sure that I had not overslept and lost the bus to Puerto De la Cruz. Unfortunately I had, but luckily there was another leaving from another bus stop, so I hopped on my bike and peddled for my life. I felt like a schoolboy going on an outing with my backpack prepared the night before and a huge grin on my face. The plan was to visit Puerto De la Cruz on the day of the fiesta del Carmen. This is the patron saint of fishermen and since Tenerife is mostly sea and beaches it does not leave much to wonder why so many people show up for such an event.

The wise oracle of my head told me that 20 euros should suffice for a journey to Puerto De la Cruz and back with a light lunch in between. But little did I know that the two hour journey would cost 12 euros 65 cents. Given the extra 5 euros in my bag which I kept ´´just in case´´ I found myself 65 cents short of the fair after buying a loaf of bread for 35 cents. So I reassured myself that the money would pop out of somewhere. First I found 10 cents right at my feet and a few minutes later keeping a keen eye for shiny things on the ground I found the exact remaining 55 cents which I needed. Miraculous! … nah

Cute dog

That out of the way, I headed to the church where I saw the statue of the virgen. I soon caught the sexton´s attention and he escorted me into a room to witness the old version of the statue from the 17th century. Honestly it´s just a normal statue, nothing special – and furthermore I was hardly allowed to appreciate it as well as I would have wished as the sexton was a bit to happy with his hands. He kept me close by holding me by the belt and ran his hands uncomfortably slow on my chest to explain that the statue was in fact just a bust. “I reckon now I am well informed to compare it with the new statue” I exclaimed, “yes let´s go”. With a bright spark in his eye, he said that I would be blown away by the feast that evening.

googled pedofile puerto de la cruz and this resulted

At the harbour, I saw an astonishing sight! People piling all over each other, some cooking on the barbecue, drinking at bamboo mojitos and others swimming, while other just chilling in their boats and jetskies. It was a stunning sight, to see so many drunk people just letting go of their worries and enjoying themselves with friends and family, drinking, singing and swimming. I have never in my life seen so many people gathered in one place celebrating happiness really.

 

At about 7 everyone started to position themselves in order to get a good view of the harbour. Then, the statue appeared. At first it incites a daunting sentiment but after watching it for twenty minutes bobbing up and down, left to right, over a sea of people who fervently attempt to touch it holding back their tears, it just becomes a bit comic, nevertheless a moving spectacle for those who manage to hold in their laughter.

With the number of people present it was tough to get a good view but for some it was easier to see than for others.

very tall man, with his daughter on his shoulders

Eventually after four long ave Maria’s and three fiesta songs that plodding statue made it to sea where it found a boat waiting to take it out of the harbour into the open sea. The emotion escalated considerably and only a few passive observers remained unmoved.

Although I do not understand some things, such as why they all swim in their Tshirts, why no one showed up for mass, and why most choose to party in the streets rather than watching the saint sail to see, it was nevertheless a stunning spectacle and totally worth the bus ride.

This blog contains many photos which have not been taken by me. This is only due to my phone breaking down and not responding to computers. So the only photos I could provide are photos of my phone with the webcam.

… and a video …

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Tenerife Travel Rules

When we came to choosing our third place to live we made it quite clear to the real estate agent that after a bed the two essential things we were looking for were a TV and a pool. Emily mostly wanted the pool and I wanted the TV. In fact so determined were we to obtain these two things that we chose an apartment with no washing machine but with TV and a communal pool. Although being a huge advocate of the harm TV does to our lives I admit that I love it a little bit too much.

In fact since we moved into the new apartment TV and I have been inseparable. Luckily today, during a dry spill of ‘good programs’ I experienced a moment of lucidity that made me realise that I had been wasting my time on the island, and TV was making things even worse. And so, I drafted myself a set of rules which should help me make the most of my stay on the island, despite the difficulty of finding a job and whatnot.

The rules are as follows:

TENERIFE TRAVEL RULES

Remember that you are going round the world
Spend at least 3 hours a day out of the house
Any chance you get, Discover a new place
Always choose that which scares you the most
Never swim in the same place more than twice*
Kill your TV
Learn
Save money

*pool excluded

Sometimes I forget that I am going round the world and that the whole point is to see as much of it as possible so rule 1 is set to keep that priority in check. By spending at least three hours a day out of the house I know that knowing my inquisitive nature I will always look for something new to do and also accomplish rule number 3. The fear rule is set because I believe that it is no fun to do something that you already know you can do – fear distinguishes that that we know we can do from that which we think we can’t, and since fear being more often than not over rated I believe that richer memories and pride will ensue with accomplishment. The swimming rule is another incentive to help me look for new locations I have never been in. How to kill your TV will be explained in a minute, but first I must remark on the importance of learning in life. The most accessible form of knowledge can be found in books, due to language being the most efficient way to get ideas through that we know of. Here I exonerate books from my previous attempts to stifle formal education, which I still do not regret.

For rule number 6, kill your TV I have gone through the trouble or being as thorough as possible with myself, as I know that it is the hardest rule for me to follow. So I wrote myself a letter which I intend to keep stored with the antenna wire which I put away just in case I ever pretend to trip over the remote control and accidentally turning on the TV. The letter is quite crude but it does the job, so far five hours and counting.

Dear Karl,

Of all the forms of Media, TV is perhaps the only damaging one. Essentially the one inherent problem with TV is that it is unlimited and versatile – hence it is not like music, books or theatre, where you are given no choice but to quit it as soon as it comes to and end. TV could virtually keep you busy for hours being so captivating (as opposed to most other medias) on more than one of the senses. TV in inciting the senses becomes addictive and noxious.

TV in goodwill could pose us with a huge volume of knowledge, however any ten year old today can tell you that any normal human being would choose his favourite show over a documentary. This is because TV plays with our subconscious mind, making it impossible not to succumb to the soothing feeling it offers in this stressful world.

This sounds like a fairly decent deal; companies bank more money out of my brainwash and I get the relaxation I need. It is a good deal indeed in your ambitions in life are equal to those of a two year old, however even then the skills which TV robs us of are not only essential to the intellectual but to any Tom Dick and Harry human being.

TV for starters demands too much of your time, which I am sure any one could invest in better things. So, if TV writes off so much of your time while watching it to derive out of it some sore of fascination, what follows? Ordinary fascination in good because it helps us excel to reach out dreams; however when you experience long term fascination, what follows is an unconscious resignation to an extreme idolatry of what is on TV. Which, as any idolatry does, demands inferiority,

That is why, instead of doing things ourselves, we would rather watch mountain climbers do their thing, cops busting criminals, heroes saving the world at the very last second, people falling in love with the right person and artists painting beautiful pictures. Mostly things which any human being could find himself doing with a little determination.

This so puts us in a hypnotic state where what fascinates us bites at our abilities to be our best.

Love,
Karl.

 

Save money, speaks for itself.

 

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Debute

Human beings can be categorised in many ways, mostly depending on the purpose you have in mind when looking at them.Now, since I am greatly fond of the topic of happiness, I have come to categorise human beings in two classes – Those who are happy with what they have, and on the other hand, those who seem to be never happy with anything. What perplexes me however, is how, although the latter seems to antagonise anything which may afford to the former the greatest happiness, he still experiences perpetual contentment or momentary happiness. Hence, I have come to the belief that a third subclass (and in my opinion the most interesting men form part of this class) may erect from the second type viz. The man who is not happy to stick to what he has, be it situation or material possession, but finds joy in the venture itself of what may or may not lead to his greatest happiness.

It follows, that the so called optimist becomes a pessimist, for he does not live up to his name through dreaming of the better, but on the contrary willingly accepts his irrational happiness and earnestly dismisses the mere option to endeavour for a better future.

“The kingdom we now inhabit is the ancient country of the Incas, who quited it very imprudently to conquer another part of the world, and they were at length destroyed by the Spaniards. More wise by far were the Princes of their family who remained in their native country; and they ordained, with the consent of the whole nation, that none of the inhabitants should ever be permitted to quit this little kingdom; and this has preserved our innocence and happiness” –Old man retired from the court, Candide

“you´ll make a prodigious fortune; if we cannot find our account in one world we shall in another. It is a great pleasure to see and do new things” – Cacambo, Candide

“In the meantime they are happy in their hopes, and for this they are also beholding to me” Folly, The Praise of Folly

I would like to let know those readers whom do not know me personally, that if I wanted to I could live with a loving family, be surrounded by five fantastic best friends, live in a nice house and have a bright easy going future ahead of me (there`s no way to know for sure, but for argument´s sake let´s assume it). Then why, would you be asking, am I living in a foreign country away from my family and friends, and over the past month changed three houses, five jobs and given out 200 Cvs? I reckon the best answer to that is that I fall in the last category. I get bored easily.

Our Second house – shit studio apartment


I want to work for loud and rude pervert Jesus selling excursion tickets and then the following day get fired from the Monkey bar. I want to work with Habibi at Jumping Jacks for unreasonable amount of hours and slavery wages, and then one day not show up and diss his phlegm nature. Get offered a job at SubWay and refuse it for a waiter job. Change stimulates me.

Emily giving out lollipops at Jesus´

Jumping Jacks

However, in so doing, I have also confirmed something about me which I already knew. What really charges me is getting to know the depth of people´s lives, at times more than they are willing to let themselves acknowledge. Why Habibi is so crazy about money, why another sells drugs or why Murad tried to rape a little girl.

This is why I want to see the world, to witness the diversity which is accessible through detachable roots.

Mercadillo in Guaza

My bike, called Monty. 25euros :D

Perhaps one day, I will fall in the first category, and honestly I am looking forward – To have seen enough to know that one thing can make you happier than the million of things you have already seen. This week my latest baby cousin was born, and she is said to resemble me very closely. At the same time Phileas Fogg reminds me that the world in surprisingly tiny, and I hope that little Mari grows up to find her little niche of happiness in this world. Hopefully a little niche in a world to her tiny and not  unknown , by first extinguishing her natural inquisitive disposition which is often taken away from us or by choice denied, being substituted with the easy way out.

Summer is with us, enjoy your holidays. Everything looks better in the past and in the future, what matter is to make it count in the present.

“But let us cultivate our garden” – Candide, Candide

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Karl Andrew Micallef 

Madrid, Toledo & Valencia – the three minute blog.

I´m sitting at a laptop contemplating the near future. Things have been so fast this past week that I have not had the time to stop and think about how to deal with the coming days. In my head the check list is as follows. Get to Tenerife, get a map, find a hostel, shower, sleep, look for an apartment, look for a job, work, look for a better job, find a better job, leave again before becoming too attached to the place. And right now as I type this, and putting everything into perspective, I´m pretty much lost. I barely know where Tenerife is! Time is precious right now so I promised myself to keep this blog short, with the intention however, to recollect the memories from the past days and put them in one short encouraging note to remind me that being lost is not a problem but part of the fun.
Last Friday we hit the clubs, actually one huge club, 7 floors high. The following day we met my Spanish friend Begoña. She said to us, ´´get in the car, we´re going to Toledo¨´ and we went to Toledo. Toledo is a wonderful city with lots of great architecture and the perfect summer weather made it even better.
Sitting at lunch, again, Begoña makes a hasty question ´´how do you fancy driving for 4 hours to Valencia?´´. So the next day we were in the car early in the morning and drove to Valencia. Met some more friends which we made on the Camino, and went to the beach. We ate the best Paella in the world and went round the city.
The funny thing is that in Madrid I was also lost, I had no plan for the night and had no idea what Toledo or Valencia were. But things turned out well. I slept extremely comfortably at Begoña´s, ate delicious Spanish food and visited two more Cities which I had no knowledge of.

Early tomorrow morning we´re off to Tenerife. Wish us luck! :D

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Camino, post mortem

I have been told that when one reaches Santiago after having completed the whole way, there is not a vast range of emotions which he is liable to experience. You either feel jubilant or else extremely disappointed. Fortunately enough I experienced the former. As I walked into the city of Santiago I was first struck by a sense of reluctance, mostly because I saw many modern buildings which seemed at first to be incoherent with the beautiful surroundings on the way; however entering the old city, I saw a fellow pilgrim pulling out of his backpack a set of back pipes which he started to play. I then knew that my Camino was over, it couldn´t last forever, if it had to give me anything, it must have already. Just then I could not resist the compelling force I felt inside and around me to smile and skip along the last few steps of the Camino. In the square, I just sat down and looked back on the whole walk. A whole month of daily walking, through 780km, 104 villages. I still cannot believe I have seen so many beautiful sights, and met such amazing people. Climbed mountains, walked for hours on end through rain, hail and snow. Slept in 34 different hostels. Learnt to stretch 10euros to its limits and many more more lessons which the Camino has taught me which I still cannot fathom.
In Santiago I spent a few nights at some friends who I had met when I travelled to Poland last year. If you´re reading, muchas gracias. Era muy cómodo. Also, my travel buddy, who shall join me on my travels from now on has flown in on Saturday 5th May and we´ve been having a great time since. She´s very funny and good company. We walked together to Finisterre, the end of the world. This is the farthest point in Europe and touches the Atlantic Ocean.
I would like to comment on the vast blue waters of the Atlantic Ocean however for three days we walked through thick clouds and so consequently when we reached the Ocean we just saw a veil of grey clouds in front of us. But for all intents and purposes, I have walked to the Atlantic Ocean.
This is what I should have seen
This is what I saw.
Following Finisterra, I started feeling the need to settle down for a while – a month of walking is no joke and sure took its toll on me. So, back in Santiago we went to the bus stations, asked for the cheapest ticket to Madrid and that same night took on the 9 hour journey. Madrid has been great so far – been to Reina Sofia Museum, saw the Guernica and also some works by Dali´ and Magritte.
Anyways, I suddenly lost the will to write any longer. So I´ll conclude. Next Tuesday I´m flying to Tenerife. I don´t yet have a place to stay or work but my fingers are crossed, so far everything has been turning out quite well for me. Sorry for the short and uninspiring conclusion, to make up, here are some pictures from the Camino and a cool video.

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Santiago, puedo olerte

Leaving Mansilla more than a week ago I hit perhaps the lowest point on the whole Camino – I started missing my family and friends, my Spanish acquisition wasn´t going as well as I hoped it would and the long flat roads were boring me.  I had been walking with a Brazilian girl for more than 9 days, which felt like 3 years of friendship; with her not a day was the same, and I had a good time, but I felt that I was becoming to dependent on her and her guidebook, and trusting that she has my back.

Leon


So in a small albergue in San Martin del Camino I cooked for Guillem and Brazilian Georgia and we watched the game Chelsea – Barca. Other than for the football it felt just like home. And in the morning I told them I would part ways with them.

Since then I feel once again free. Free not from dependence, but free to choose my dependencies.

The morning after having celebrated with Lorenza her daughter becoming a woman, I walked to Astorga and met David. Coming up a hill I first saw his sign saying ´´free food´´, and looking further there was David jumping around in his green tracksuit. David is a guy who has been living in a box on top of a hill for 3 years. The box is made out of Styrofoam and is surprisingly cosy. Every morning he walks 2km into town to fill up on water with which he makes the coffee and tea he offers to passing pilgrims. With the donations he gets he buys fruit and biscuits, also for pilgrims. The man is living inspiration. Once a banker and a junky, David now lives happily with no possessions. All he wears comes from the surplus of clothes that the passing pilgrims have to offer. However David seldom refuses to give away anything he´s wearing to a more needy pilgrim, such as when he walked barefoot in front of my eyes just to give away his shoes. The man is surprisingly clean, but shows me to his thank and kettle which eh uses to bath.

I spent 3 hours with David, and I never heard him use the first person once. He tells me that to be happy you have to destroy the ego and get rid of the bubble you stand in which prohibits you from thinking about anyone other than yourself.

Money to David is the shift of attention. When he wished something, he doesn´t want to be thinking whether he has enough money to buy one, so he prays the universe and eventually he gets the orange. You may think that this is bullshit but so he has lived for 3 years. Mar told me a day later that she spent the night with David, they slept comfortably and he had no particular trick up his sleeve, other than a lighter he used to make fire and cook for her a vegetarian mean. I guess it´s true that to be happy you have to be either too rich or too poor.

A few days later I reached the highest point on the Camino (1505m), Cruz de Ferro. By 6 I made it to Molinaseca, the most charming town on the whole camino. And I finally delivered the note from Danilo and Ino.

Joe –  Joe reminds me that life is full of ups and downs and suggest running as fast as I can when I am going down hills. This he says is how he keeps in mind that in life you can hit rock bottom in no time, but also reminds him how hard it is to get back up. For Joe the Camino was a life saver; one night he popped 6 pills of ecstasy and drank a bottle of vodka, thinking that that should do it to kill himself. But he wakes up days later covered in vomit. The first thing he sees on TV was the film ´the way´, the following day he books the tickets for the Camino. ´´If this doesn´t change me I will try to kill myself again!´´ Famous last words! Since then Joe has been giving tips on a Camino forum and now works for a priest as a youth worker and does the Camino with groups of teens 4 times a year.

In O´cebreiro, I got stuck in an albergue coz of the bad weather. But on the bright side, leaving Villafranca I found a sachet full of smoke. This is often given to pilgrims in Albergues to ease the pain, however who isn´t happy at such a sight. A 74 year old woman who has done the Camino 13 times seemed interested, so I expanded my budget by 20 euros.



´´ Man is, by inclination, very little of a worker. He is, first, a wanter –  a bundle of instincts; second a feeler – a bundle of emotions; last and least, he it a thinker. What real work he does is done not because he likes it but because it serves one of these two bundle of instincts´´ – Elsie Lincoln Benedict.

And now, I´m in Arzua – the Ks are below the hundred mark and Santiago is just round the corner. Will be there in 2 days!!! :D

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Man grows most tired when he is standing still

I am now half way through the Camino and fully synced with the routine of being on the Camino. I need not stress any further that Spain is beautiful and that its food and wine is delicious, and so this blog shall not be about the sceneries or about the places I have visited and their individual qualities, but more about how every person is shaping this camino into a life changing positive experience.

The past week has been extremely challenging due to the constant rain, hail and wind which have reduced me to just my thoughts. After crossing the Mesotas [the last set of hills in the first section] the way of St. James has become surprisingly flat, and I find myself merely following yellow arrows along the way, walking unconsciously and allowing my mind to wander into thought. I don´t know if I have been walking faster or slower, or what the names of the places I´m visiting are, but I feel that my senses are somehow heightened and every experience has a twofold effect on me. I am learning to move past unnecessary baggage which I had been carrying along and to prioritise more, and most naturally become more aware that one does not need luxury to survive but simply his health and happiness, both easily achieved through very few things.

Over a plate of pasta and four bottles of wine, Louis tells me that creativity is the thing that he fears the most; it is that which comes up with evil thoughts that hurt others and makes life hard. I obviously rebut and we later come to the conclusion that creativity is only positive when it comes with a clear mind. Of many things, the Camino clears your mind.

I spent Easter in a donativo albergue in Tosantos, owned by an old hospitalero who fell in love with the Camino when he was just 16. He told me that to him the Camino is like an internal orgasm and also the love of his life, in fact he recalls being 16 and hugging all the trees that came in his way with the deep emotion that overtook him. After cooking dinner for 30 people out of just a few vegetables and one sausage of chorizo, we went up to the attic of the albergue. We sang and clapped together and then read letters from pilgrims who had been in the albergue 20 days before. We read about their troubles and dreams and we all cried our eyes out ending the whole celebration in one big hug. I must admit that this experience has been very powerful and I find myself on the camino drying up tears every time I remember about the episode. I feel like I can now allow myself to cry and let it all out with just a few tears; it is a very liberating. It has however, not served to reinforce any belief in a higher being, but on the contrary to help me understand further how great humans are in respect of emotions and the community – It´s a pity we have to attribute our greatness to a so called greater being, when we ourselves are just as great.


On the camino everyone is a bit different in his own way and we all come on the camino with our own reasons in mind, however the camino does not give you what you want but just what you need. Having said that it is not as simple as just walking the camino; you must open yourself and listen hard to what the camino has to tell you through humbleness. On the camino you have to keep in mind that history does not repeat itself but it rhymes and so there is no point in using the camino to run away from something but to help you change into a better person. The race is just with yourself; for some it¨s easier and for some close to impossible; but we must keep trying.

The hospitalero says that he had set his eyes on a gorgeous girl called the camino and through many ups and downs, pain and fatigue he has come to love her and find happiness. Josantonio and InYoung found happiness laying in the sun. I´m happy when the sun comes out after a rain storm, or when I see the village come closer after a long stretch, and from the stories that people want to tell, and from a plate of potatoes, and a warm bed, and when my towel dries up overnight, when oranges cost less than 30cents, when I find a copy of the economist in English, and when I understand some Spanish – If you don´t find happiness in the small things, the big things will always seem too small. Love you all.

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Pamplona, Germans and interesting people

So much has happened since I last blogged. Leaving the mountains behind every day has been so different from the other. I´ve passed through forests on my way to Larrasona and through dry lands to pamplona and on. With regards to the scenery, I would say that the way to Larrasona was simply gorgeous. The towns we passed through must be some of the most quaint places I have ever seen, especially the places where you can get the best smelling coffee and the freshest oranges, or the places where you could just stop by a river to soak your feet in the cold waters.
This is all very good, but if I were you I´d be asking myself – is all this guy doing just walking all day? well, for the most part yes, but in Pamplona I chose to bring out a bit of my normal life to light. I met a few pilgrims and went out for some tapas. I asked for a small beer and they just gave me a small flute, perhaps the size of a long shot glass, so we decided to hit the supermarkets and get some real beer. The beer there was huge, and so for seven euros we got ourselves six 1.5 litre beers and went to the park. It was good to go back to basics, just drinking beers in the park with a  few mates. I need not say how that ended, after the beers followed the bars and the basque chants, and the dancing. The only problem with this was that we had to be back in the albergue by 10 so at 1015 a bit shaky and far too happy we headed to the German owned hostel. Knocked on the door and in a bit they opened the door. The German man looked at us in disapproval but with a subtle smirk on his face showed us to our room. Just as soon as we reaches the room I guess the German guy must have regretted the second he let us into his hostel. Finding our hung clothes missing we started yelling “where the f***k are our clothes?” and over and over again, until we passed out in bed admitting that if we´ll be good boys we´ll have our clothes returned.
It´s a bit ironic that the following day the way took us to the ´Alto del perdon´ which means the ´climb of forgiveness´, and ohh so much I yearned for forgiveness for my muscles were soar, my bones were aching and my blisters were pumping. I do not know how I made it through that day. Unfortunately I also lost a good number of the friends I had made on the camino, mostly based on how hard they hungover – but that´s really the nature of the game, people come and go. And speaking of people, I think that on the camino I have not found one person who had not an interesting story to tell, be it how he managed to find work in china or how he learnt to juggle with the circus, or how she got pregnant, or how he´s been vagabonding the world for ten years, or how the Brazilians never pass the salt from hand to hand but place it on the table in order not to risk giving away all their luck. The people of the world of just interesting, but to be on the camino you just have to be a bit of a crazy and free soul.

Anyways, today there was really bad weather on the camino and it rained for most of the day, and the wine fountain at Irache didn´t offer the best tasting wine, but Spain keeps getting more beautiful with every step and new people with new stories seem to keep popping out from everywhere. Antonio from brazil is waiting for me with some Brazilian tobacco tea in hand, and Spanish Maria is teaching bad words, Chris from Ireland hurt his leg on the way and stopped in the town before this, and Pete from the UK that lives in Thailand is helping out sick Korean Chasy – never a dull day on the Camino, goodnight :D

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St. Jean – Roncesvalles

This is the first blog I am writing after leaving home last Tuesday the 27th of March 2012. Since then I have been to Dublin aiport where I have crashed on Starbucks´ sofa after having my first cup of Classic hot chocolate. After Dublin I went to Biarritz, caught a bus and went to Bayonne. Bayonne is simply charmin and has a strong french character. From Bayonne I travelled by train to St. Jean Pied de Port.


St. Jean is the starting point of my journey to Santiago. I got my pilgrim´s passport from a sweet old lady at the Pilgrim´s office who tried to make herself understood in French, Italian and German before figuring out that I could quite well understand her in English. On the way of St. James a scallop shell is carried to identify the pilgrims and the old lady at the office gave me mine for free just  because she liked me :)


This morning I headed out at seven with a polish girl I made friends with in Bayonne. Our first stop was at the bakery where I  bought the tastiest baguette, made better with some polish garlic cheese.

Climbing up the pyrenees, I started to fall in love with the place, for with every step you take towards their summit the more beautiful they become. Every time you look back, the mountains grow more majestic and stunning. I now notice that my friend´s vocabulary is rather limited, however on the mountains I found her to be the most eloquent of speakers for all she said was ¨wow¨ and ¨how beautiful¨, and in fact those are the only words I could come up with myself.
 
 
At one point I saw wild horses grazing on an open plain, and so I tried to touch them but they fled as soon as I got close enough – but I got a pretty good photo of them at least.

Higher on the mountain I started getting tired and cranky but this subsided when I saw the ground covered in snow, boding well for the wishful undersigned who has never seen snow. On the snow were engraved the words “YOU CAN DO IT” so I mustered some courage and walked on. The thought of a Bulgarian guy I met carrying little if no clothes, but 50 cans of canned food also helped to get me over my weakness.

 At home I usually drink bottled water but none comes any close to the water that streams down the mountain. It´s fresh and comes from the fricken mountain :DMy shoulders are killing me and my dogs are barking, but I sure have fallen in love with the Pyrenees. Now it´s time for some dinner, some blister popping, shower and a well deserved rest. Tomorrow Larrasoña.

 
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On travelling light

My wait is finally over and tomorrow I leave for my long awaited journey. I may not be the most experienced traveller, however I find that the necessity to travel light comes as an indisputable truth to the backpacker. Planning to walk the Camino de Santiago and later moving on to other countries to work and live, I can safely say that the components of my bag are henceforth pretty much all I own.

Here’s me in less than 10Kg ☟

  1. 2 disposable camera’s
  2. Deodorant
  3. Tissues
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    Just in case I need to do some business where there are no toilets to be found

  4. Soap
  5. Toe warmers
  6. Needles
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    To burst blisters while walking

  7. Surgical Tape
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    This can be used for injuries such as cuts and burns, but can also be used for temporary repairs to shoes and backpack.

  8. Tooth paste and Tooth brush
  9. 3 pairs of boxers
  10. 4 pairs of socks
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    To make regular changes during long walks.

  11. Internet tablet
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    Ideal to keep in touch with family and friends, but also to read books and update blog :D

  12. Wire pouch
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    Chargers and connecting wires

  13. Medicine
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    only the basics: Paracetamol (for head aches and flu), Imodium (Just in case I have the loose stools), and Vitamin Sachets.

  14. Documents
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    ID card, Visa, Social security card etc. Passport

    Diary
    Bible
    Tickets

  15. Towel
  16. Jumper
  17. 3 long sleeved vests
  18. Swimming trunks
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    Which can double as shorts or pijamas.

  19. 2 pairs of jeans
  20. 3 Shirts
  21. Sandals
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    To rest your feet after a long day of walking and to shower in public showers.

  22. Beanie
  23. Sleeping bag

When packing keep in mind two simple steps:

  1. Select the things you think you need
  2. Discard half of them   

…and also remember that if you THINK it will come in handy, don’t take it!

So that’s it on travelling light. Wish me luck, I finally get to cross off the last thing on my To do list….

is nothing

I have finally received the long awaited guide book of the Camino de Santiago. It’s written by John Brierly and multiple reviews claim it to be one of the best guide books for the Camino Francés ie St. Jean – Roncesvalles – Santiago.

I’ve only read through the first section, but I must say that the book is particularly captivating, apart from the lengthy historical overview and spiritual nonsense which doesn’t really appeal to me. However, it covers all the important matters, from flights to buses, from hats to shoes, and from rucksack to speaking Spanish to advice on how to pick garbage on the way – It’s very thorough.

Reading through the first section which deals with general introductory topics I was chiefly struck by the concluding note on Risks. The author claims that “an attack is really a cry for help and calls for understanding and a loving response, not a counter-attack”. Now this is obviously a bit of an idealistic view of defense, for although having never been forced to fight I find that one must resort to physical contact as a final option. Brierly however adds to this claim a brilliant poem by William Ward. And I couldn’t resist posting, it ties so intimately to travelling and taking control of your life and dreams. Enjoy!

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool,
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement,
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return,
To live is to risk dying,
To hope is to risk despair,
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow,
But he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or live.
Chained by his servitude he is a slave who has forfeited all freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.
The pessimist complains about the wind;
The optimist expects it to change;
And the realist adjusts the sails.

Online check in: ryan air trying to sell you their souls

I’ve finally reached the final leg of my wait, and my departure is just days away. I’m itching to get on that plane but I can’t help but wonder how I will feel on the day – I must admit that I either have a hamster spinning his wheel somewhere between my stomach and chest, or admit that I’m slightly adrenalinised.

I got my documents in order, upgraded my CV to include colour, got all necessary certificates and documents scanned, chose my music, tried out my shoes and backpack and started saying goodbyes. Well saying goodbye mainly involved going out a bit more often than usual which by definition defeats the notion of saying good bye but I’ll get there.

(my point on ryan air ☟)

I’m also thrilled to inform you that other than doing the online check in, and nearly getting screwed over by ryan air to buy a number of things which I clearly don’t need, I have also found a travel buddy. Her name is Elise Mahogany**** and she’s a good friend of my best friend. She seemed to share a similar passion for my dream so when she asked if she could join I accepted without having second thoughts. After all the whole idea behind this trip is to be spontaneous and fun as possible. Let’s just hope she holds the thought for a few weeks until she gets her tefl certificate. I’ll protect her with my life.

So that’s that. Farewell is next saturday (st. Patrick’s day) and I’m having a few dinners with my closest friends and with friends of my parents’ who have supported me all the way.

Wish me luck! I assure you blogs from the road are soon on their way.

*** Name has been changed upon request just to be cool

…NatGeo says so!


I haven’t been posting much recently as my grandmother is unwell, however I’m glad to inform you that I tested my backpack and everything weighs just under 6Kg. This weeks or the next I shall work my last few shifts and then the last month with be entirely dedicated to saying proper good-byes and getting in shape. 27-3-12 :)

Danilo e Ina

As the day I leave Malta draws slowly but surely closer it comes not as a surprise that with every spaniard I meet I swiftly pick up a conversation that has to do with the Camino de Santiago – and today I did just that.

It just happened however, that the spanish couple sitting at the bar at which I work had coincidentally completed the way a couple of weeks before heading for Malta.

The couple were extremely friendly and as they showed me photos and told me stories from there adventure I was dying to just leave the following day. Unfortunately I have to work and wait till the 27th of March however long the wait may seem.


A Place that serves fantastic octopus with just a dash of olive oil, salt and pepper for less than €10.

On a little paper Danilo scribbled a message and entrusted me to deliver it to a 70 year old hospitalero that has completed the 800km journey 20 times after having his leg hurt and replaced by a prosthetic one. Matias (hospitalero at Molinaseca) shall be one of the people I look forward to meeting the most.

Nevertheless the sheer vibrancy in the couples voice as they told me their stories is  quite enough to make you want to head out and start the walk. I Can’t wait!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s a hat!

I decided to delay writing about purchasing my tickets because I have been known to not go through with what I usually say I would do. Today however, I am ready and fully motivated to write this blog and I hope not to experience any regrets in the future. Today I finally faced the biggest challenge and resigned from my course. I can’t say it was easy, not at all, the feeling of knowing that now you are following an entirely different path from your best friends and family. Losing that sense of connection with your community. If in the next three months I were to be asked, what’s my name and what I do, I can no longer answer back by saying that I’m a law student and in a way gaining some acceptance from the idea that we are both living  in a shared paradigm within the world. The desire of anticipating what is to come in the coming weeks as an outsider, linked only by the past to the people that surround me, is to say the least quite overwhelming.

To forget a friend is sad. Not every one has had a friend. And if I forget him, I may become like the grown-ups who are no longer interested in anything but figures…

On the 27th of March I shall be flying out to Dublin where I will be spending a few hours over the night till my next flight to Biarritz. Biarritz is as close as you can get to St. Jean Pied de Port, where I shall be starting my journey to Santiago. A Train connects the two cities, and is only an hour or two long.

” All men have the stars,” he answered, “but they are not the same things for different people. For some, who are travellers, the stars are guides. For others they are no more than little lights in the sky. For others, who are scholars, they are problems. For my businessman they were wealth. But all the stars are silent. You–you alone–will have the stars as no one else has them– “

I do not know what to expect from my travels but what I do know is that my fascination with the world and the people that live on it is inexplicable and I am totally looking forward to heading out and living off the strength of my feet. I do not know what to expect but I’m pretty sure that the world is a fairly kind place to live in. Last week I was contacted by the owner of an albergue who offered me to volunteer  at her hostel in exchange of a bed and a meal. Just that is enough evidence that if one is kind to the world and is true to his desires and dreams, the world will repay you in kindness. The next step is to take the first step. Buen Camino.

“ I thought that I was rich, with a flower that was unique in all the world; and all I had was a common rose. A common rose, and three volcanoes that come up to my knees–and one of them perhaps extinct forever… That doesn’t make me a very great prince…” And he lay down in the grass and cried. 

                                                                                                                                                   

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Why travelling is no less valuable than any other traditional life-style

There are many reasons why one would desire to travel. And each reason that prompts one to leave his country and go abroad gives a different term to the word travel. If you are doing business, then what you are doing is travelling on business; and if you travelling with the aim of sight-seeing or relaxation then you are said to be travelling on holiday. Each and every act of departure from one’s country to another may in fact be called travelling, however, for the purposes of this blog I must first define what I mean by travelling, or being a traveller.

To me travelling is not merely going to another country, landing, lodging in a hotel (often rated by stars), savouring the local food and trying to chit-chat with the locals. This in my opinion is not travelling but just confirming the profile of a country provided by the guide book. The notion of internationally star-rated hotels alone, goes far enough to proof that staying at a hotel simply says that you do not intend to go out of your comfort zone, and that what you are looking for is a standard experience just as can be provided at home. Furthermore, tasting the local cuisine does not make you the intrepid traveller you imagine yourself, for the simple reason that any form of food can be reproduced in any kitchen, anywhere round the world.

Travelling as I imagine it, is not for everyone and that is why I do not wish to be misjudged as a critic of alternative lifestyles who thinks that it’s either his way or the high way. Not at all. My idea of the traveller, consist of courage and boldness. A traveller is one that, although coming from a particular culture, is not brainwashed by it, but on the contrary wishes to discover the elements that compose other cultures. He does this by indulging himself from head to toe in a holistic endeavour to enter in a given society, not superficially, by sight-seeing, but by fully living the life of the locals – working, talking, struggling, recreation etc. This undoubtedly takes more time and requires more sacrifices than the average holiday but is by far more rewarding. This is what I mean by travelling!

The term Vagabonding may be more appropriate ☟

Vagabonding – n.   (1) The act of leaving behind the
orderly world to travel independently for an ex-
tended period of time.   (2) A privately meaningful
manner of travel that emphasizes creativity, adven-
ture, awareness, simplicity, discover, indepen-
dence, realism, self-reliance, and the growth of the
spirit.   (3) A deliberate way of living that makes
freedom to travel possible.

In life, two things are truly compulsory. Birth and death. Other than that, humans are well endowed with will and can choose and play around with their life as they please. I believe that every human being has an equal limit of possessions which he can own. For if a rich man possesses many cars and houses he may not possess happiness or time, while on the other hand a poor man may possess less material goods but possess more time. Ultimately our possessions are determined by our will and priorities.

Our life is given value by the proper management of priorities that we can deal with. We all possess a certain number of priorities and we are all free do attribute these priorities to any given activity of life. However having said this, one must be weary of priorities and must think things through properly. Because although we may all share equal number of priorities, these priorities can easily be affected by tradition and social conditions, and if these do not direct our priorities in line with our dreams then we end up fighting a losing battle, and unavoidably wasting our life-time and resources.

One must prioritise in accordance with his will and his dreams, and he must do this very carefully. As I do not have a problem with anyone wilfully pursuing a career in the corporate sphere, because it is his dream and not because of other social factors, then one may not say that a life in pursuit of travel is any less valuable.  I do however, feel pity for those people who determine a hierarchy of priorities based on ideals not theirs, be it fear or the negative opinions of others. This having been said, tradition stems from a line of long-standing activity and therefore it must hold some valuable truth. Albeit, what held truth in the past wont necessarily hold true today and therefore in prioritising one must strike a balance where it is needed. An idea of innovation has to be held in mind, constantly.

To conclude, we can say that the bottom line to human existence and value is that we all share 3 underlying features. Birth, death (and logically a period of time separating them) and thirdly, the capacity to prioritise and act. whichever path you choose in life, sitting on your ass all day, working like a dog, or pursuing other roads, still amounts to the exercise of priorities. However, if we are to view life in terms of value I believe that this can only be done when one responsibly, prioritises and acts in accordance to his dreams and that which makes him happy (trying as hard to be true to himself and lesser to social frauds which may influence him to act otherwise) yet at the same time acting reasonably within the boundaries of his society. In this manner, no one is harmed and if genuine, all paths of life can be viewed as equally valuable. All you have to do is ask yourself, Is this what I really want to be doing with my life?

Song of the Open Road

During the past two days I have been reading a book by Rolf Potts. The Book written by a veteran long-term traveller deals with the art of long-term world travel and coins for a title the term vagabonding. Even as early as two chapters into the book I have found the book to contain a lot of valuable insight on how to face problems I am sure to encounter during my travelling. A recurring figure in the book which is continuously quoted with admiration is Walt Whitman. Whitman, American poet and humanist, embodies perfectly the soul and courage that make up the traveller. Below is one poem about leaving everything behind and hitting the road in pursuit of thought and inspiration. Click here to view of Walt Whitman’s poems. 

1

Afoot and light-hearted I take to the open road,
Healthy, free, the world before me,
The long brown path before me leading wherever I choose.
Henceforth I ask not good-fortune, I myself am good-fortune,
Henceforth I whimper no more, postpone no more, need nothing,
Done with indoor complaints, libraries, querulous criticisms,
Strong and content I travel the open road.

The earth, that is sufficient,
I do not want the constellations any nearer,
I know they are very well where they are,
I know they suffice for those who belong to them.

(Still here I carry my old delicious burdens,
I carry them, men and women, I carry them with me wherever I go,
I swear it is impossible for me to get rid of them,
I am fill’d with them, and I will fill them in return.)

2

You road I enter upon and look around, I believe you are not all that is here,
I believe that much unseen is also here.
Here the profound lesson of reception, nor preference nor denial,
The black with his woolly head, the felon, the diseas’d, the illiterate person, are not denied;
The birth, the hasting after the physician, the beggar’s tramp, the drunkard’s stagger, the laughing party of mechanics,
The escaped youth, the rich person’s carriage, the fop, the eloping couple,
The early market-man, the hearse, the moving of furniture into the town, the return back from the town,
They pass, I also pass, any thing passes, none can be interdicted,
None but are accepted, none but shall be dear to me.

3

You air that serves me with breath to speak!
You objects that call from diffusion my meanings and give them shape!
You light that wraps me and all things in delicate equable showers!
You paths worn in the irregular hollows by the roadsides!
I believe you are latent with unseen existences, you are so dear to me.
You flagg’d walks of the cities! you strong curbs at the edges!
You ferries! you planks and posts of wharves! you timber-lined side! you distant ships!

You rows of houses! you window-pierc’d facades! you roofs!
You porches and entrances! you copings and iron guards!
You windows whose transparent shells might expose so much!
You doors and ascending steps! you arches!
You gray stones of interminable pavements! you trodden crossings!
From all that has touch’d you I believe you have imparted to yourselves, and now would impart the same secretly to me,
From the living and the dead you have peopled your impassive surfaces, and the spirits thereof would be evident and amicable with me.

4

The earth expanding right hand and left hand,
The picture alive, every part in its best light,
The music falling in where it is wanted, and stopping where it is not wanted,
The cheerful voice of the public road, the gay fresh sentiment of the road.
O highway I travel, do you say to me Do not leave me?
Do you say Venture not — if you leave me you are lost?
Do you say I am already prepared, I am well-beaten and undenied, adhere to me?

O public road, I say back I am not afraid to leave you, yet I love you,
You express me better than I can express myself,
You shall be more to me than my poem.

I think heroic deeds were all conceiv’d in the open air, and all free poems also,

I think I could stop here myself and do miracles,

I think whatever I shall meet on the road I shall like, and whoever beholds me shall like me,

I think whoever I see must be happy.

5

From this hour I ordain myself loos’d of limits and imaginary lines,
Going where I list, my own master total and absolute,
Listening to others, considering well what they say,
Pausing, searching, receiving, contemplating,
Gently, but with undeniable will, divesting myself of the holds that would hold me.
I inhale great draughts of space,
The east and the west are mine, and the north and the south are mine.

I am larger, better than I thought,

I did not know I held so much goodness.

All seems beautiful to me,
can repeat over to men and women You have done such good to me I would do the same to you,
I will recruit for myself and you as I go,
I will scatter myself among men and women as I go,
I will toss a new gladness and roughness among them,
Whoever denies me it shall not trouble me,
Whoever accepts me he or she shall be blessed and shall bless me.

6

Now if a thousand perfect men were to appear it would not amaze me,
Now if a thousand beautiful forms of women appear’d it would not astonish me.
Now I see the secret of the making of the best persons,
It is to grow in the open air and to eat and sleep with the earth.

Here a great personal deed has room,
(Such a deed seizes upon the hearts of the whole race of men,
Its effusion of strength and will overwhelms law and mocks all authority and all argument against it.)

Here is the test of wisdom,

Wisdom is not finally tested in schools,

Wisdom cannot be pass’d from one having it to another not having it,

Wisdom is of the soul, is not susceptible of proof, is its own proof,
Applies to all stages and objects and qualities and is content,
Is the certainty of the reality and immortality of things, and the excellence of things;
Something there is in the float of the sight of things that provokes it out of the soul.

Now I re-examine philosophies and religions,
They may prove well in lecture-rooms, yet not prove at all under the spacious
clouds and along the landscape and flowing currents.

Here is realization,
Here is a man tallied — he realizes here what he has in him,
The past, the future, majesty, love — if they are vacant of you, you are vacant of them.

Only the kernel of every object nourishes;
Where is he who tears off the husks for you and me?
Where is he that undoes stratagems and envelopes for you and me?

Here is adhesiveness, it is not previously fashion’d, it is apropos;
Do you know what it is as you pass to be loved by strangers?
Do you know the talk of those turning eye-balls?

7

Here is the efflux of the soul,
The efflux of the soul comes from within through embower’d gates, ever provoking questions,
These yearnings why are they? these thoughts in the darkness why are they?
Why are there men and women that while they are nigh me the sunlight expands my blood?
Why when they leave me do my pennants of joy sink flat and lank?
Why are there trees I never walk under but large and melodious thoughts descend upon me?
(I think they hang there winter and summer on those trees and always drop fruit as I pass;)
What is it I interchange so suddenly with strangers?
What with some driver as I ride on the seat by his side?
What with some fisherman drawing his seine by the shore as I walk by and pause?
What gives me to be free to a woman’s and man’s good-will? what gives them to be free to mine?

8

The efflux of the soul is happiness, here is happiness,
I think it pervades the open air, waiting at all times,
Now it flows unto us, we are rightly charged.
Here rises the fluid and attaching character,
The fluid and attaching character is the freshness and sweetness of man and woman,
(The herbs of the morning sprout no fresher and sweeter every day out of the roots of themselves, than it sprouts fresh and sweet continually out of itself.)

Toward the fluid and attaching character exudes the sweat of the love of young and old,
From it falls distill’d the charm that mocks beauty and attainments,
Toward it heaves the shuddering longing ache of contact.

9

Allons! whoever you are come travel with me!
Traveling with me you find what never tires.
The earth never tires,

The earth is rude, silent, incomprehensible at first, Nature is rude and incomprehensible at first,
Be not discouraged, keep on, there are divine things well envelop’d,
I swear to you there are divine things more beautiful than words can tell.

Allons! we must not stop here,
However sweet these laid-up stores, however convenient this dwelling we cannot remain here,
However shelter’d this port and however calm these waters we must not anchor here,
However welcome the hospitality that surrounds us we are permitted to receive it but a little while.

10

Allons! the inducements shall be greater,
We will sail pathless and wild seas,
We will go where winds blow, waves dash, and the Yankee clipper speeds by under full sail.
Allons! with power, liberty, the earth, the elements,
Health, defiance, gayety, self-esteem, curiosity;
Allons! from all formules!
From your formules, O bat-eyed and materialistic priests.

The stale cadaver blocks up the passage — the burial waits no longer.

Allons! yet take warning!
He traveling with me needs the best blood, thews, endurance,
None may come to the trial till he or she bring courage and health,
Come not here if you have already spent the best of yourself,
Only those may come who come in sweet and determin’d bodies,
No diseas’d person, no rum-drinker or venereal taint is permitted here.

(I and mine do not convince by arguments, similes, rhymes,
We convince by our presence.)

11

Listen! I will be honest with you,
I do not offer the old smooth prizes, but offer rough new prizes,
These are the days that must happen to you:
You shall not heap up what is call’d riches,
You shall scatter with lavish hand all that you earn or achieve,
You but arrive at the city to which you were destin’d, you hardly settle yourself to satisfaction before you are call’d by an irresistible call to depart,
You shall be treated to the ironical smiles and mockings of those who remain behind you,
What beckonings of love you receive you shall only answer with passionate kisses of parting,
You shall not allow the hold of those who spread their reach’d hands toward you.

12

Allons! after the great Companions, and to belong to them!
They too are on the road — they are the swift and majestic men — they are the greatest women,
Enjoyers of calms of seas and storms of seas,
Sailors of many a ship, walkers of many a mile of land,
Habitues of many distant countries, habitues of far-distant dwellings,
Trusters of men and women, observers of cities, solitary toilers,
Pausers and contemplators of tufts, blossoms, shells of the shore,
Dancers at wedding-dances, kissers of brides, tender helpers of children, bearers of children,
Soldiers of revolts, standers by gaping graves, lowerers-down of coffins,
Journeyers over consecutive seasons, over the years, the curious years each emerging from that which preceded it,
Journeyers as with companions, namely their own diverse phases,
Forth-steppers from the latent unrealized baby-days,
Journeyers gayly with their own youth, journeyers with their bearded and well-grain’d manhood,
Journeyers with their womanhood, ample, unsurpass’d, content,
Journeyers with their own sublime old age of manhood or womanhood,
Old age, calm, expanded, broad with the haughty breadth of the universe,
Old age, flowing free with the delicious near-by freedom of death.

13

Allons! to that which is endless as it was beginningless,
To undergo much, tramps of days, rests of nights,
To merge all in the travel they tend to, and the days and nights they tend to,
Again to merge them in the start of superior journeys,
To see nothing anywhere but what you may reach it and pass it,
To conceive no time, however distant, but what you may reach it and pass it,
To look up or down no road but it stretches and waits for you, however long but it stretches and waits for you,
To see no being, not God’s or any, but you also go thither,
To see no possession but you may possess it, enjoying all without labor or purchase, abstracting the feast yet not abstracting one particle of it,
To take the best of the farmer’s farm and the rich man’s elegant villa, and the chaste blessings of the well-married couple, and the fruits of orchards and flowers of gardens,
To take to your use out of the compact cities as you pass through,
To carry buildings and streets with you afterward wherever you go,
To gather the minds of men out of their brains as you encounter them, to gather the love out of their hearts,
To take your lovers on the road with you, for all that you leave them behind you,
To know the universe itself as a road, as many roads, as roads for traveling souls.
All parts away for the progress of souls,
All religion, all solid things, arts, governments — all that was or is apparent upon this globe or any globe, falls into niches and corners before the procession of souls along the grand roads of the universe.

Of the progress of the souls of men and women along the grand roads of the universe, all other progress is the needed emblem and sustenance.

Forever alive, forever forward,

Stately, solemn, sad, withdrawn, baffled, mad, turbulent, feeble, dissatisfied,

Desperate, proud, fond, sick, accepted by men, rejected by men,

They go! they go! I know that they go, but I know not where they go,

But I know that they go toward the best — toward something great.

Whoever you are, come forth! or man or woman come forth!
You must not stay sleeping and dallying there in the house, though you built it, or though it has been built for you.

Out of the dark confinement! out from behind the screen!
It is useless to protest, I know all and expose it.

Behold through you as bad as the rest,
Through the laughter, dancing, dining, supping, of people,
Inside of dresses and ornaments, inside of those wash’d and trimm’d faces,
Behold a secret silent loathing and despair.

No husband, no wife, no friend, trusted to hear the confession,
Another self, a duplicate of every one, skulking and hiding it goes,
Formless and wordless through the streets of the cities, polite and bland in the parlors,
In the cars of railroads, in steamboats, in the public assembly,
Home to the houses of men and women, at the table, in the bedroom, everywhere,
Smartly attired, countenance smiling, form upright, death under the breast-bones, hell under the skull-bones,
Under the broadcloth and gloves, under the ribbons and artificial flowers,
Keeping fair with the customs, speaking not a syllable of itself,
Speaking of any thing else but never of itself.

14

Allons! through struggles and wars!
The goal that was named cannot be countermanded.
Have the past struggles succeeded?
What has succeeded? yourself? your nation? Nature?
Now understand me well — it is provided in the essence of things that from any fruition of success, no matter what, shall come forth something to make a greater struggle necessary.

My call is the call of battle, I nourish active rebellion,
He going with me must go well arm’d,
He going with me goes often with spare diet, poverty, angry enemies, desertions.

15

Allons! the road is before us!
It is safe — I have tried it — my own feet have tried it well — be not detain’d!
Let the paper remain on the desk unwritten, and the book on the shelf unopen’d!

Let the tools remain in the workshop! let the money remain unearn’d!

Let the school stand! mind not the cry of the teacher!

Let the preacher preach in his pulpit! let the lawyer plead in the court, and the judge expound the law.

Camerado, I give you my hand!
I give you my love more precious than money,
I give you myself before preaching or law;
Will you give me yourselp. will you come travel with me?
Shall we stick by each other as long as we live?

Your Worldview Can Set You Free

This article has been taken from [http://www.highexistence.com/your-worldview-can-set-you-free/]

You want more freedom?

No sweat.  All you have to do is this:

Investigate the current boundaries in your life.

Your belief system determines the boundaries in your life.  It is the framework you use to make sense of the world around you.  It is a way of interpreting events and encounters.  It is your container.

It will supply the answers to questions like:  What am I?  Who am I?  Where do I come from?  Where am I?  Why am I here?  What should I consider valuable?  What should I consider important?  Can I do that?  Is that allowed?  Is that good?  Is it bad?  Is it dangerous?  Is it desirable?  Am I pretty?  Am I ok?  What happens to me when I die?  What is safe?  What is dangerous? What is happiness?  What gives value to my life?  Etc.etc.

You did not waltz onto this spinning globe with a worldview in your pocket. Oh no.  When you arrived on planet E you were as clean as this page I’m writing on, an unwritten story, a wave of possibility.

Your family and community taught you cultural beliefs, religions, worldviews and gave you specific guidelines for interpreting information to help you cope with society and interact reasonably well with other people.

Depending on where you were born – the African Kalahari or in an igloo at the North Pole – this way of interpreting the world might be completely unique and very precise, created to sustain a certain way of life and to ensure longevity.

Beliefs are an editing system for the brain: in every moment, your brain observes your surroundings critically, eliminating what it perceives to be erroneous or inconsequential to your belief system, and focusing solely on what it considers to be vital and important to your specific worldview.

The older you get, the more invested you become in this way of thinking; invested in the sense that your belief becomes stronger, and your belief system and operational programmes more rigid.

These beliefs that you harbour can be likened to computer programmes.  Some of these programmes serve you, and some simply slow down your hard drive and cause you pain.  Just like your computer, your personal programmes need to be checked and upgraded often, if you are to ensure optimal usability and an enhanced experience.

Unhappiness is often the result of a conflict between the programmes you’ve had uploaded and the desires of your soul.

If your belief system conflicts with your desires, it creates major problems:  A man destined to become the next King, but who desires to be a trapeze artist, will end up having a very hard time.

If he never recognises that his own belief that his destiny is pre-ordained is blocking him from being who he truly is and give himself permission to demolish that belief, he will become a prisoner to himself and his mind.  He will live a dull and unfulfilling, prescribed life when he could have been doing tricks in tights whilst balancing on a wire all along.

Belief systems are important; they serve as a kind of firewall in our lives and are there to keep us safe, but if they are completely subconscious and very solid, they can interfere with the soul’s desires and cause massive internal conflict.

A belief system should support you, not control you.  It should remain flexible and fluid, allowing space for personal improvisation and exploration along the way.  The happiest people are the ones who are able to claim complete ownership and architectural rights over their own minds and hearts.

A worldview remains only that – a view.  It is one of millions of optional truths.  The more you are able to splash and roll around in them, taking what works for you and discarding the rest, the better the chances are that you will gain happiness and contentment.

Your energy circuits can be re-wired.  In some cases, you simply need to unplug.  Reality is a construct; it’s pliable and bendable.

Self-Uncovery is about letting go of your pre-programming – you preconceived ideas, expectations and judgements – so you can wake up and become conscious.

Get off auto-pilot and start driving your own plane again.

Get in touch with that glorious, ancient part of you that’s expansive, as big as the Universe itself.  Unwrap from the bonds that keep you spinning around inside your own little head; there’s so much out there.

The less tied you are to excessive and conflicting boundaries, the easier it is for energy to travel through your system.  Open your heart. Release yourself.

We choose our own reality, whether we do it consciously or not.  We choose what to consider important.  We choose what will bring us happiness.

Freedom is intricately tied to the stories we tell ourselves about ourselves: what you believe you are entitled to have, what you’re allowed to do and what you’re expected to become influences how broad the choices are that you make.

Your whole life is based on a point of view.

You might as well pick a fun one.

Turn on tune in drop out

Although there are various mixed feelings surrounding this character, with many calling into question his lack of philanthropic efforts despite his great success, one cannot deny what an inspirational being this person is. The video below is a speech delivered by Steve Jobs to Stanford University Students.

                                                                                                                              

[5:09]         “Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”

[7:14]    “I didn’t see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.”

“During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple’s current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.”

[9:39]       “Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”

[11:54]                        “No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.”

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

[14:00]   “Stay hungry. Stay foolish.”

La mochila

la mochila – the rucksack (might aswell try learn some spanish. will come in handy during the Camino)

Esta mochila 55 litros de capacidad versátil de rendimiento se ha diseñado pensando en la comodidad y es ideal para caminar, acampar y viajar. Su repleto de características para hacer la vida más fácil para los amantes del aire libre, incluyendo un ajuste digne acolchado de aire fresco para apoyar la espalda fresca y un cinturón de cintura ajustable acolchada para el apoyo adicional de madera. 2 compartimentos principales con cuello de nieve y Hood compresión correa con bolsillo interior y frontal del mapa fuera de cremallera bolsillo con cremallera de acceso a la sección principal de la bolsa

This 55 litre capacity versatile performance rucksack is designed with comfort in mind and is ideal for walking, camping and travel. Its packed with features to make life easier for outdoor enthusiasts, including an adjustable padded Cool Air deign for cool back support and a padded adjustable waist belt for additional lumber support. 2 main compartments with snow collar and compression strap Hood with inside map pocket and outside zipped pocket Front zipped access to main bag section

Time

While I would usually take the bus even for as little as three bus stops’ distance, today I tried to use a little leg power to get to my desired destination. For the first leg of my journey I intend to walk the Camino De Santiago and so today, just out of curiosity, I walked from Valletta to University and from University to Msida just to check how my body deals with the activity of walking. This turned out to be a piece of cake, but since I train regularly this did not come as a surprise to me.

The Camino De Santiago struck me as an interesting experience from the first time I heard about it, but being an atheist I have been bummed by the spiritual aspect of it. Having said that, after some research the idea of walking the Camino started to grow on me and so I decided to attempt the so called Way of St. James, for spirit in the broader sense does not necessarily have to mean the holy spirit as understood by religious institutions, but a cocktail of intellect, reason, and the conscience that makes us human. From the Camino I expect a personal broadening in these terms.

In a few words, The Camino De Santiago is a pilgrimage to the Cathedral of Santiago de Compostela in Galica in north-westernmost Spain where the apostle Saint James is sad to be laid to rest. Although the ultimate goal is always the Cathedral, many ways have been developed throughout the years. The most opted for, and the one I wish to travel, is the French Way or Camino Francés on which most pilgrims start from either Saint-Jean-Pied-de-Port on the French side of the Pyrenees or from Roncesvalles on the Spanish side. At the start of your journey you can purchase a passport designed to be stamped at the numerous hostels provided for pilgrims which will later serve as proof if you wish to get the Compostela (a certificate awarded to those who complete the journey).

A film Portraying the camino:

The Passport:

The Compostela:

While I was walking this morning, speeding cars passed by me and I thought to myself how fast everyone was going compared to me. But then it occurred to me that there is nothing wrong in doing things slowly. In my life I have often been labeled as a slow person, or rather a super calm person that takes his time too much. But what is so wrong in taking one’s time? For me taking my time has made me appreciate things more. It has made me enjoy  even those things which at first glance were tedious and boring. In the spirit of logic, I would argue that to enjoy doing something an intimate connection must be established, that connection takes time ∴ you either take your time or that thing is not worth doing at all. In my opinion this can be applied to all human activity even that that is most dreadful. This attitude to life comes quite natural to me but during the camino I intent to pay particular attention to it.

Albeit, the unhurried life has often been misunderstood and frowned upon. It is not for all, and leads to a certain degree of loneliness because to take time one needs to first and foremost know himself and enjoy his own company. In a sense you have to be your own best friend and be disposed to spend hours entertained by your thoughts. To see things leading to a bigger ideal is in my opinion deceptive and pathetic, life is meant to be enjoyed my the second, all it takes is some time.

Genesis

Ever since I can remember I have always had the uncontrollable habit of impulsiveness. This is perhaps what has brought me to finally make up my mind and leave on an open-ended journey of a lifetime. After having studied a year out of  six of law, I discovered that although I may be a great candidate for this career, the course is too long and dull to exchange for my youth. Although the course is only six years long, which means that I would be done by the time I’m 25, I fear that if I had to postpone this journey to a future date when I’d have more shirts that T-shirts in my wardrobe, I will also lose the mental will to spontaneity to knowledge of no real value.

When I compiled a bucket list, I figured out that there are too many things that I should have done with life and which I have not even attempted. I thought about the hours I have wasted watching TV, believing that I was actually deriving some comfort or relaxation from. The morbid thought that I have already gone through ¼ of my lifetime and that my most joyful memories are those I have of when I was a kid led me to conclude that a free lifestyle is what I am meant to pursue. I don’t want to wake up one day when I’m forty with an aching back, soar limbs and a loan that would probably kill me before I start to enjoy my purchase, and think that my best days have gone by while I was too busy trying to keep up with exams, notes and a good job.

I like to think of myself as not being an idiot, and I don’t think I’m wrong in this respect. Dropping out of university does not mean that education is not on my top priority. It does not mean that my love for knowledge will fade away simply because I am cut off from the attendance sheet. My theory holds that every human being has a predisposed authenticity wired somewhere in his system and thus we must all find our own path and formulate a unique character. I believe that we must pursue exclusively only that which interests us. I have faith that once we start to pursue that which purely interests us and stop learning things just because they’re in the syllabus, we will discover that one interest will incite you to delve in other subjects to ultimately find a natural connection in how the world is interconnected. Finally, your truest interest will become the world and that which is inside it, beauty, happiness, people.

Through this journey I wish to bring to light what is essential for human happiness. Becoming the protagonist of my life as opposed to watching it go by as I try to fit myself in today’s conventional mould.